A word we never thought we would see again.
For the past week, I noticed my body changing in a way I had gone through once before. I was experiencing nausea, a massive 6 day long headache, flickers in my stomach, heavy boobs, and oh the mood spells! I knew this wasn't AF coming. It was different. I just knew….
About 3-4 days ago, I had taken 2 tests and saw a veryyy faint positive. I decided to take a digital Clearblue that spells it out to make it easier. It came back saying Not Pregnant. I called my doctor and told her the situation asking for a blood test. I haven't had a missed period yet. She put an order for me to have one done. The following day, my HCG count was above 5 but still a low 14.7. She told me to take another blood test in 48 hours to see if my HCG levels double. Which I will be doing in 2 more hours. Yesterday, I decided to take another Clearblue test. And sure enough, I saw those words: PREGNANT. I knew it. Tomorrow, I will be 4 weeks.
Ever since our miscarriage, I quit charting everything except keeping track of my periods. We were done. We decided to accept the child free life. Five years of trying and a miscarriage was enough for us. I know some people out there may say that it is because we stopped trying. No, I do not believe that. We had quit trying before but for all of our 5 years of being together, we have never tried to prevent it either. I believe God saw my pain that I went through with my miscarriage. He knew how much we were hurting. He gave us time to heal.
I'm not going to lie and say I'm not scared. I am terrified. We are taking a more "chill" approach about it and we aren't announcing to our families until I am further along and we know everything is okay. Please take some time to say a prayer for us. For a healthy, full term baby. Thank you all who have kept up with my blogs and for thinking of us. It's amazing how quick life can change….
UPDATE: My hcg levels from the 2nd test TRIPLED!!! The doctors are doing what they can to monitor the baby. Please please please pray that we will be holding our healthy baby in our arms!!!! EDD March 6th, 2015.
